I used to cry..

I have a habit to erase the bad memories from my brain as soon as I can and I do it so good that sometimes I make up some good memories instead of the bad ones. I don’t know should I call it as a habit, or not, because I don’t do it intentionally, it just happens. I’m not saying I never remember any, but sometimes my brain really surprises me with its forgetting ability.

I don’t remember the beginning of this habit, but I remember that I haven’t liked it for a long time. I still sometimes don’t like it because forgetting brings unlimited forgiveness beside and unlimited forgiveness may sometimes hurt you in a lot of ways. But despite the harm, it creates a very peaceful relief inside not to remember a bad incident and to feel empty. Anyways, as I said I don’t remember the exact start of this forgetting and forgiving, but I certainly know that I have this virtue by the help of my sister.

I used to cry when someone stopped me on the way while I was driving my sister’s stroller, which she used for a very long time, and asked me is there a problem with her..

I used to cry when children left the park because of getting scared of her..

I used to cry when I saw her crying when all the kids left the park and she started swinging by herself..

I used to cry when our ‘normal’ neighbors jumped on top of our apartment in the middle of the night because they got disturbed of the sound of the music my sister listened and they decided to give a lesson to us..

By those times, while I was feeling anger and enmity to those people, she was still trying to hug and kiss them. While I wasn’t able to think anything good, she was achieving to be ok and to forget in a way after a while. And I noticed that she was way happier than me by doing so. May be this was her secret.

And now I know that this is her secret. Actually it’s not a secret. Let people be bad, thoughtless by themselves..As one said “Forgiveness is the relief from the past”. Just enjoy your relief..

Google & Microsoft, Wave & Bing

These days, we are hearing names of Microsoft and Google more than ever. The reasons are the new communication tool “Google Wave” and the new search engine, sorry decision engine “Bing”.

So what are these stuffs? And how are they going to affect our lives coming days?

Google Wave

Google Wave was introduced us as the future of communication. It is personal communication and collaboration tool which is open source for us to be a part of this experience. It has several properties which you can have an idea by watching Google I/O developer conference , but mainly the feature called Live Collaborative Editing makes all of us gulp for a moment. This is the feature that makes the participants reply anywhere in the message, edit the content, add participants, and then with playback feature you can rewind or forward all the process if you want. Lars Rasmussen explains the reason why they wanted to implement this feature by saying “Instant messengers spent half of your time by showing she is typing..” So by combining e-mail, chat, conversations, documents, everything together what they do is to speed up our conversations, our mailing experiences.

Microsoft Bing

Another product that gets our interests is the new search engine of Microsoft, Bing. Actually Bing is called as a decision engine instead of a search engine because it does not only show a group of results, but also it gives a bunch of information that helps us to make a decision. In the introduction video it is said that, Bing is for helping us to overcome search overload and find the best choice faster. And they say “The world does not need just another search engine, it needs a decision engine.” We can see that Microsoft has really strong feelings about Bing by looking their $80 million to $100 million ad campaigns.

Another new product of Microsoft that is being spoken these days is Xbox360 since it’s probably going to start completely a new era in game world by its “no controllers” feature.

All of these products are just signs of the coming products; I’m just curious what’s next?